Tiffany

I taught Yanti a lot of stuffs today :)
But she seemed stressed out :(
Anyway, today's activities can be pretty much summarized as class only. In the morning, its more challenging. We had to design our own "country" with papers, cardboards, plastic bottles, plasticines, paints, and recyclable items. It was fun... for me, at least. I mean, its way better than just sitting down, discussing and do random acts. lol. Then, after minum pagi, we had to innovate a product with recyclable items too. And, I introduced Thermotech! After my group agreed, did the prototype and presented it in class, only 2 person asked questions, which is rather surprising. Because for other groups, its like a war of questioning here and there. Not sure if my product is just too advanced or Thermotech is just too simple that everyone can understand. We continued class in the afternoon and we had to do sketches. Our group did a sketch about Jimmy Choo, it was spontaneously hilarious.

Then, at night, we had Buddhist class. But after getting back to dewan makan, we had a rehearsal for the step down of komander... Not sure where and why is he going, but dayumm...

I just realized I hadn't finished updating my NS journal. Sorry, my bad. 

I thought I would be late for this thing because of the massive jam in Jalan Ampang. But I managed to reach by 8.25am, which is still okay :) 

Sece was rushing to the toilet this morning and she fell down. And she was one of the participants for Kembara halangan today. I asked Cikgu Atiqah whether I should just get a subsitute or just use the reserved participants. She told me, just use the reserved players.

I had no idea how wrong I was to listen to her.

Anyway, we had our second day of Module Kenegaraan in class. Surprisingly, I got into the same group with Ayyad, Ashraff, Sece, Shan Ting, Azyan, Aziee and Amirin. Class was boooooring. After class in the afternoon, we went to dewan makan for lunch as usual. Except this time, the teacher called my name.

I was so blur. Apparently there's an event for kenaikan pangkat. Yanti got 1 Balak, I got 2 Balak and Yan got 3 Balak. And the most deserving Isabel got 4 Balak :) I wasn't excited about this. I wasn't even smiling after we walked back to our seats. I felt heavier. But, at least I have the proper authority to lead the team now, though its gonna be stressful. Well, great power comes with great responsibilities. And I'm ready for that :)

At noon later we had Kembara Halangan competition and that's when everything went absolutely wrong. We got a penalty of 5 minutes for not being able to get a substitute. I took all the blame, in the end. Haih. Our total time was 12 mins plus, the fastest. But in the end, we got 3rd place. Alpha got first with 15 mins. Sigh.. Some mistakes can only make once. In the end, Bravo got 3rd place overall. Wira got 2nd place.
Ashraff was supportive too, he bought a bottle of 100 plus for Hui Wan and I to share :) I'm paying him back later.
Well, Haris belanja-ed the entire ex Malaysia Cute members burger again -.- ish. I'm getting fat, you know. Grrr.

What a tiring day. NS is like mental training instead of physical. We had our first day for Module Kenegaraan, pretty glad that Malaysia Cute are still in a team, except in a different class with other different groups. Anyway, the first activity is like library camp explore race but more boring and the venue is Kem Ulu Pari lol. We were running from one place to another, playing activities like true or false game, geography quiz, singing patriotic song, pentomin (i think) haha, etc. In the end, we got 3rd place? I think. Damn, I'm forgetful.
And also, I noticed that I'm losing my patience easier and easier now. -.-
Then, we had A Frame competition at 2pm. I was, very very very very mad at myself. I went soft and decided to change Farah to Ummu as the person on the frame (pengemudi) because she was begging to me and telling me that she didn't have the confidence to do it. Even though she was good at it during practice.
During the competition, Ummu fell from the frame. Twice. I never expect that to happen because we were totally fine during practice. We lose to Charlie and after we got out from the "battle ground", we cried. We ALL CRIED. I can see Bravo getting more cooperative now >< :P
Azyan was no where to be seen, and the more I consoled the members, the more I swallow the urge to cry. In the end, the tears fell. I hate it and until now, I'm still scolding myself for crying in front of my members. Haih.
It isn't about winning anymore.
Bravo wira were kind too, they cheered for us and consoled us. Astonishingly, Bravo was announced 2nd place overall.
LOL. The girls went berserk in the dorms later that day. Haha.
At night, we had taklimat about Pertandingan Kembara Halangan, which is just tomorrow :O We had a strategy planning session and all I hope now is that things would go smoothly tomorrow.

I seriously have no idea how today passed. In the morning, we got the permission to jog, which I did together with Pooja, Kylie and Yan. But we got caught later because apparently we were running at the wira's track.
oops.
Anyway, I ended up running like 1km. Yeah, I'm a potato in running. No doubt about that.
Kinda glad that I get to sweat today... The PT activities every morning is just stretching. how to sweat. Then, I held a gotong - royong in my dorm lol. Not everyone participated since some of them were having their afternoon nap. But that's just the minority :) Half an hour later, we all slept. And that's how we wasted our time today, and the weather today is crazy hot. Its like I'm sleeping in a pool of sweat, and when I woke up, my entire shirt was wet with sweat. Fuh.

Then, we wasted our time until bedtime. Hahaha, basically its just friend bonding time. lol

We had theory lessons about Colt M16 today. We were all separated to several different groups and thanks goodness, Bravo got dewan makan. Haha. Since most of us slept 1am plus, we were all dozing off when the corporal was explaining. I literally slept in front of the corporal, and Pui Ing was constantly waking me up. Anyway, with all the boring talking from the corporal (he is really well built but he talked so soft I can't really listen), the fun part was we get to hold the gun~!! No, I gotta stress this : HOLD the gun. Not shoot. Not pulling the trigger. No. Just touch and grab and aim.

Today is a damn sleepy day for me, like, I can sleep anytime anywhere. I took a quick 10 minutes nap while waiting for Bravo's turn to take our trays for lunch. At night, we had Buddhist class, and I dozed off. lol.

And Hui Wan just reminded me that tomorrow is Valentine's Day and the last day of Chinese New Year. And the best part? We're getting our phones back :D

It's actually 1am now as I'm writing this. All the dorms are still alive. Basically, today was rather tiring. Wel, actually, every day was tiring lol Anyway, we spent the entire morning in the dewan makan to prepare the stuffs and all. We continued in the afternoon, which I actually took the 2 hours to sleep at the back of the dewan makan together with Essya. Hui Wan was busy practicing her dance, sometimes purposely waking me up just to show me /.\
Then, things went on until night where the event is suppose to start. The competition was supposed to begin at 9am but because of some people, it started at 9.30pm. I wore Aziee's baju kurung tonight tho ^^ It was nice and black :D Then, I took a photo with Firdauz from Delta because he was wearing a black baju melayu too and it sort of matched :)


Actually everyone looked exceptionally pretty and nice tonight :)

Anyway, I sat at the jury panel along with Isabel, Zul and Farah. Each of us a representative from each company :)

To be honest, I have no idea what are the performances about and I don't even know what am I watching. ahhaha. And i gotta admit, I was a little bias with Bravo ><

AND BRAVO ENDED UP GETTING 2ND IN PLACE HAHAHAHAHA
And Satheesh got 2nd place for the solo performance too! ^^ He was seriously awesome when he did that sajak/pantun.

And at the end of everything, all the urus setia had to do a choir performance.
It was f***ing embarassing. I was front row cos' I'm short and I don't even know the lyrics.

The end.

I'm waiting till 12.30am to call the dorms to light off. Yan told me she was too tired and wanna sleep first... I hope she is or else...
Omg, I was so exhausted today. We had a ceramah from DBP today. For the entire morning, I was trying very hard not to fall asleep in front. The ceramah was about pantuns, sajak, syair and how to present/sing those stuffs. ._.
It was a terrible presentation for the first session, but for the second session, the lady taught us how to sing all the syair, sajak and seloka. It was funny and ridiculous. Worse part? They announced that this will be a competition among the companies. :O
Every company has to present 8 to 10 minutes and there will be a group that is not competing called "urus setia". There was 6 wirawati and 6 wira in each company that are required to join. At that time, I was thinking like, "hell no I'm not gonna sing all those weird stuffs."
I thought it would be like some sort of awesome thing.

In the end, I got chosen to decorate the stage AND also being the jury.
JURY?!
Yeah, jury. Exactly. The judges.
Well, at least I don't have to sing or dance. We spent the entire afternoon preparing the stuffs and trust me, it was crazy frustrating. Especially when the teachers couldn't come to a conclusion and making a decision. So, we wasted a lot of time on the design of the stage, just because we couldn't decide the title of the event. LOL.

At night, Jasmynn and Hui Wan planned about Satheesh's birthday. It's gonna be a blast and I helped to fold some origami cranes.

There isn't much to summarize for these past few days. But its mostly breathing training to try and calm myself down from frustration and madness. Haha.
This morning, we returned our phones and I kinda got a bit teary reading Ivan's lame messages on Whatsapp haha. Freaking Hazim asked me why I cried =.= I totally turned my back on him and ignored him. hehe. Then we had a damn boring ceramah about drugs. I swear they had the worst slide show ever. And the worst group activity ever.
And I terskip lunch today. Note : TERSKIP. I forgot there's lunch time. =.=

Then, we had kembara halangan and Cikgu Abbas sort of had a motivation talk for us and I was kinda sad about it. Azyan isn't participating cos' she said she had a boyfriend and she didn't want to feel ashamed...
wtf.
The more I think of it, the more I felt like a terrible leader.
I'm trying!!! ><!
 I did the name list of the participants for Kembara Halangan and we discussed our strategy. It was exhausting but at least Bravo is cooperating.

Later that evening, we had our dorms checked by commander himself and left us like 10 minutes to shower. Haha.. And we managed to do so T.T ish.

Nearly woke up late again today :/ Anyway, we had sex education this morning in class. It was completely useless because it doesn't really cover the important stuffs.
Hmm... We balaks2 were super busy today because we implemented a new system. I don't know but to me, its totally just for image purposes. We had to make sure everyone walked 3 by 3 and in a barisan everytime after we got out from the dewan makan. Isabel's idea. Well, it really waste a lot of time and energy and by the time everyone reached the hill, its a mess already. So, what's the point? I tried suggesting about another way, but, yeah, I TRIED.
Azyan wasn't doing such a great help today either. Bravo was the last to come out from our dorms today for the first time because of her. Then, the jurulatih announced that we can wear baju awam. But Non - Muslims have to baju kelas. Do you know how potong it feels?! T.T

At night, we had buddhist class. Its eating and sleeping session in class, basically. Haha.. fun times with friends. Haris belanjaed the whole group burger again. -.-
Then, before going to sleep, us balaks2 had a meeting again. It was seriously frustrating because it kept running off topic =.= Jeez.

Woke up at 5.45am today together with Sece, Hui Wan, Voon and Siaw Pei. We are supposed to gather at padang kawad by 6.15am actually... And yeah, all of us are literally rushing to brush teeth, wash our face and change. But we didn't have PT today ._. We literally wore PT clothes down to padang kawad until 7.30am then change to baju kelas. Ever since we got back from CNY holidays, schedule are pretty tight - with classes, not marching activities -.- We started Module 4 today and I was still in the same group with Ashraff, Naz, Sece and Mai. Ayyad, Shalu and Maxly volunteered to change to Group 5 :/ dayummm... sad lah. Module 4 was a bit awkward because it was sex related. Except its just the general knowledge we learn in science lol
After class, I realized that the wind season had stopped. ITS FREAKING HOT. I was sweating throughout the entire session of map reading. Yes, we have map reading in the afternoon. I thought it would be awesome, learning how to read a map and all, but I was wrong. It was literally Chapter 1 of Geography Form 1. We learnt about coordinates and how to read a map. And what is a compass.
LOL.
Then, we had to skip shower time to write our names for the photos we ordered. I looked stupid in both class photo and company photo. Haha. Maybe because I was squinting my eyes, so my eyes were small. So I dont look so ... me. haha.
At night, Haris belanja-ed Malaysia Cute burgers. Like seriously, that was so nice of him to do so. haha.. rich kid. :P

We got scolded in the morning because we didn't bring our phones down during PT. Who on earth brings their phone during exercise?! ._. And it's the first time we actually have to bring our phones down during PT. So, yeah, basically we got our phones confiscated by 7.40am. Then, as usual, we had our classes. I'm pretty relieved that we didn't change our groups or whatsoever because I'm kinda happy with my group members :D We had an organization planning activity thingy in class, and our organization's name was INFINITY. Hahaha, it was my suggestion and they took it.. Ehem :P Class continued after lunch till tea time, it was a hella boring.
I don't know what kuih they gave, but it looked terrible ._. Hazim called it kuih eraser hahaha...
Hmm.. Also, I'm planning to go strict on my members already, I mean, my members begin to take advantage of me just because I'm less strict than Azyan. But again, why so serious? Unless its in barisan lah.. Talking about barisan, I was really frustrated with Azyan today. We literally had a debate in front of Bravo wirawati in the padang kawad that 7+2=10. <== what?!
I mean, seriously?! And she insisted that it was 10 instead of 9. I was totally speechless at her failure in maths. But she got her senses back after I told her to use her fingers to count.
At night back at our dorm, Naz and Eima told me that I'd been talking in my sleep again. And then, suddenly, they went all honest on me, telling me that I'd started so before CNY. And they said, I even cried once.
What.

Time flew! CNY holidays totally ended like in a blink of an eye? haha..
Anyway, "home" sweet "home"~ I brought basically just food back to camp. lol
By the time I reached camp, Hui Xin was there too. And we accompanied each other back to dorms, but then there were teachers on duty to check our bags. I feel sorry for them, cos' one of them said, "Anak Cina ni, tak payah bawa beg besar sangat!!"
Jeez, sorry.
By the time I had all my stuff arranged in my locker, it was already 5pm. Took me an hour to pack everything, phew. Hmm... Naz brought a lot of food. A LOT. Like, a few bags of it? And her mom even cooked us spaghetti ^^ hehe..
Pui Ing was more than glad to see us back and at night, she told me a lot of stuffs about what happened during the CNY holidays. They went to Melaka apparently and she showed me a lot of pictures she took. Haha... She's like a small kid, talking about her experiences excitedly :)
We got to sleep early tonight, so I'm not gonna waste that chance of sleeping!!! Nights :)

We had to wear full loreng today because we're having photoshoot session. I'm not good in tying my hair into a bun so Pui Ing had to do it for me. I shouldn't have my hair layered before I came for camp T.T Things were pretty rush this morning, Azyan overslept after she came back from her morning prayers T.T She was supposed to duty today, I guess I'll just take over her part since she looked tired as hell.
Hmm.. Photoshoot was okay, except the wind was strong and it was pretty sunny when I took my class photo. I mean, I can't open my eyes -.-
Oh yeah, I had a photo with Hazim too.
Tah daaaaa...
ugh my hair.
Then, in the afternoon, we had activities like A frame, dice game thingy, some crawling lol and transporting a bucket of water from one end till the other end. It was fun tho, until Yan decided to show her power as a 2 Balak -.- its like, we're having fun and then you/re just there showing off like ... jeez. But yeah, okay lah...

Hmm, we're going home for CNY break in 2 more days~!

*Next post is after CNY holidays ^^ BACK TO CAMP! 

Monday and its Bravo wirawati's turn for the beep test D: It's stupid. We did like 5 minutes of warming up and then 3..2..1.. BEEP~! HOLY **** WE GOTTA RUN WITHOUT PROPER WARMING UP?!
Yeah, I reached level 3-7, IT WAS TERRIBLE. My past record was level 5 =.= Isabel was complaining too hahaha, she's a runner tho :) Anyway, class was a bit boring until the end, we had juggling competition. I had no idea what I was doing, seriously. After morning tea, we continued the lessons and it was boring UNTIL the end. We had catwalk session where everyone had to do actions while they walked on the 'red carpet' but the actions cannot be repeated. Since I was last row to do it, Hazim suggested that I flip my hair cos' no one did it yet.
And I freaking did it.
Malu sial.

We had another PC lesson in the afternoon. Omaigod it was a total waste of time. We only learnt 5 types of transport in 2 and a half hour. WTF.... Not even bandaging?! =.= Under the hot sun too... jeez.
Night was the usual tho :P

Sunday~! :D Buddhist class was usually boring, but today we did a little singing :D My voice hadn't healed and was still croaky... but still, singing :D heh Then, we had Chrysanthemum tea and tofu sandwich for morning tea. Finally, the taste of Chinese food~ ^^
After lunch back in camp, our group had our practice for the sketch. I was the main character DUE TO THE LACK OF CHINESE GIRLS IN MY GROUP and Haris was my 'fiance'. hahahaha T.T (cry) Ashraff and K did some editing with the script and the story line. It was ridiculously malu because we have a marriage proposal scene and the only time I ever got proposed with guy kneeling down in front of me was Ivan for prom night. Ugh. Then we have crying scenes. Sad scenes. Both-families-nearly-gonna-fight-each-other scene. Singing 1Malaysia scene.
Its just a sketch, after all...
Hmm.. then, Ashraff told me a bit about himself. His school got swimming pool. <== wtf
And he was in a quite a number of relationships before, I forgot the number but I was like wtf.
This guy, Ashraff, <== wtf
That's the only thing I can actually think of him at that time. Haha.. But he's a great guy :)
I got heavily sunburnt apparently, because everytime I take off my specs, I looked like a panda. Oh, well, back to the St John days :)
At night, while waiting for the Muslims to finish their prayers, Satheesh, Jasmynn, Hui Wan and I repainted the flag cos' the paint got all cracked up. It wasn't completely done after the Muslims got back, but its something :D

Hazim asked for my number today. Hmm... weird =.= I'd never knew that guys here pikat girls just like that, but I gave him anyway *regrets* ehem.
Anyway, its Bravo to duty today and Pooja did the ikrar this morning. Classes was great today, we had to do performance related to vision of Malaysia. I don't know why, but the thought of a love story came into my mind. Since my group members decided on perpaduan, the love story thing fits even more. And I suggested that idea. And I had to write the script. A love story between a Chinese girl and a Malay guy. Gao dim.
Then, when I told Pui Ing about it, the first thing she said, "You so fast plan your marriage with Hazim already?"
Sheesh =.=

Then, we had another Pertolongan Cemas lesson in the afternoon. It was about CPR and choking. Before starting the lessons, the jurulatihs apologized to all of us girls that if they taught the wrong stuff, we should raise up our hands to correct them. WHAT. That was so ridiculous. In the end, that Charlie teacher called me up to demo the whole set of CPR and choking procedure. Together with Hui Wan (hahaha) and Azyan (she volunteered). Both Hui Wan and I are St. John so we don't really have a problem but Yan... She was like a clown on stage /.\ |||

*Finally got the freedom to continue my NS posts lol so here it is :) 
I didn't have a good sleep at all. Its just heavy, chesty coughs the entire night. At PT this morning, we had the first beep test (multi stage fitness test) from those involved in the program gaya hidup sihat. Its been a long time since I did the test, I guess I'm gonna be worse than before -.- Then, we had terrible char kuey teow for breakfast..wait, was it even char kuey teow? -.- Anyway, as usual, we changed to our baju kelas and gathered at padang kawad again at 8.45am. I got dizzy again and was 'carried' to medic. Mana tau, the medic dude looked at me and said, 'Kau lagi?"
Sorry for being such a weak link, dude. So I requested for a 2 hours rest. He insisted 1 hour. I said fine. And then I went to sleep at the resting room for 4 hours :P haha. Then, the nurse woke me up later and gave me MC and medicines :) I must say, I was happy. Finally, I could rest :) And basically, I slept for the rest of the day, till night. I actually went to Buddhist class, but the cough syrup was strong and I couldn't stop feeling drowsy /.\ So I went back to my dorm and just sleep.
LOL

We didnt do much today but I made a card for dad :) as usual but this year its a bit different :) 

I literally slept for only 2 hours that day. I was on the laptop till 3.30am, went to to sleep forcefully, woke up at 5.30am all hyped up. Insomnia at its best. I was targeting for 9A+ on Jan, then as paranoia kicked in, 6A+ will do. Dad was even worse.

Fainted in padang kawad this morning before going in for class. My knees felt extremely weak and my head hurts like crap. Voon and Hui Wan had to support me to medic and all I got was 2 hours of rest.

ohkay =.=

Anyway, before lunch, we had pemakaian pangkat. Trust me, I nearly cried out of frustration and anger when Charlie switched balaks. And then Cikgu Atiqah just stood there, like it was nothing. She was definitely glad that Yan got it instead of me. Yeah.  World is unfair right?

Apparently, I had an appointment today. I totally forgot about it. So I took the chance to get cough meds and antibiotics :) Haha... More meds again =.= haih....  After that, we had kawad practice during noon. We practiced from 2pm to 4pm. I was extremely irritated with Yan's voice, shouting commands and showing off her kawad. Gosh, I know she is some national level kawad human but please, be humble !! ><

I was like her dog, following her request to demo to everyone while she shouted the command. The problem is she kept giving the orders in the wrong time! And it make everyone confused!!! :( And Cikgu Atiqah said, in front of everyone, "Tiffany, ko betul2 ada pengalaman kawad tak? Kalau tak, biar orang lain demo jer. Tak payah ingat ko 1 Balak perlu buat semua."

Haih.

*Shit, its 2.30pm. Heaviest insomnia.*

Woke up constantly at night due to heavy coughs. The cough syrup given by medic isn't working and I could feel a fever kicking in. The thought of Azyan being the 2 balak hit me and I felt, terrible. After all I'd did... Haih. *Deep breaths*

Class today was the last day for Module 1. I had a really heavy cough in class and it was totally embarassing. Lucky I was sitting beside the door, so with Ashraff's call, I went to toilet to calm down. I managed to get MC today but it was wrong timing. As I was sleeping halfway in bilik rehat, I was told that there was a practice for 'pemakaian pangkat'. Shit is real. So I skipped my MC and went for practice at night. Sick but I managed to pull through. So proud of myself haha... Complicated feelings at night too... I mean, why.

Just, why do I always happened to be the 2nd choice for everything? T.T

Moodless today.
Cikgu Dauz chose the balaks today. Not exactly choose also cos' Yan straight away took the pen and wrote her name under the 2 Balak section.

It was a total heartbreaking reality for me to accept. She didn't even called me out to write, she wrote her name first. Devastating. Seriously. 3 months under her? I can't do it man, she is so controlling. So close - minded...
Holy shit.

Sore throat! :( But its presentation day /.\ I'm kinda nervous since we had to present everything in BM.

Anyway, PT this morning was awesome. We got to RUN! :D :D :D I can finally feel my nerves stretching properly after days of useless warming up ever since I got here =.= Breakfast sucks as usual, so I skipped it.
Talking about what's happening next. Hah, an interesting day in class, I tell you.

Today, I decided to sit beside Pooja in the front row of class. And Aisyah, a Malay Charlie girl from Tawau, introduced herself to me in MANDARIN. I was like, holy shit, you don't see Malays speaking Mandarin as fluent as her, of course, with a touch of BM slang, but still, its a total respect :) Without even knowing her for more than 15 minutes, she pointed to me to a guy, called Hazim. First impression : He actually looked not bad. Not the handsome type but yeah, I gotta admit, he got the attractive looks. She told me, "He is my Prince Charming :)" in Mandarin. 10 minutes later, I forgotten what activity we did, but we got to talk a bit. He called my name, spoke in Bm and I replied him in English hahaha... I was confused on how he knew my name, but then I recalled, we wore freaking name tags. And when teacher announced that we had to do a sketch, the leaders have to go out and take our gilirans. He was there in front too, we took our papers, exchanged smiles, and went back to our groups. For that moment, I think Aisyah was jealous. But I didn't thought much and begin discussing with my group :) I chose the gangster character, no one agreed to it but
 yeah, they kinda accepted my request in the end. They have no idea I'm probably the most garang one in the group haha.
*help*

Anyway, PRESENTATION. Everything went well. I can't believe my BM was fluent. At least much better than I expected. Komander complimented us about our presentation arrangements ^^ but he then said our flag don't have the name "Warisan Pahlawan" on it. What. OKAAYYY...

At night, we had Buddhist class. And we got 3 Chinese books written in traditional Chinese. *trying very hard to read*

We're supposed to do the pembinaan pasukan stuffs today and since Azyan is the leader together with K, I'm just busy with the flag along with Satheesh. This time, we finished it together with Jasmynn and Pooja. Despite being busy with the flag for 3 long days, Azyan and her gang hadn't even conclude our sorakan and lagu. like what the effing shit? I was kinda frustrated with her attitude lah, nak imej jer. So I asked her how was everything going. She scolded and swore, and said she didnt have the semangat to do it and sat down on a chair. Ignoring the world, ignoring the deadlines. I was pretty pissed off but being a "helpful" member of Bravo, I took over. Frustrating night, really. Ahhh, I can't believe I have to deal with princess attitudes for 3 months! D:

*Its 1.15am now. Shit. SPM results in 10 more hours.

Too tired to even bother to write, jeez. Cikgu Atiqah told me that she was gonna choose Azyan to be the ketua Bravo Wirawati today cos' she said the protocol is Muslim as ketua and Non-Muslim as penolong ketua. I was devastated cos' Yan never really did anything except for scolding the members, though they're innocent at times... :(  What a way to start the morning.

Anyway, Satheesh and I continued to paint Bravo's flag. The teachers actually chose fking Warisan fking Pahlawan as our company name. It sounded so ridiculous oh gosh why. When we almost finished the touching up of the flag, someone said our flag looked like the Sarawak logo. I was like, "Noooooo.... its gonna be done in just a few hours and now..." urgh. Idk what to do and best part? K wasn't helping, he pretended like its nothing. D:

Its Lawatan Keluarga today, Mom came to visit for like 30 mins and brought a bit stuffs for me since I needed them :) She bought a bottle of Cola for me, haha yay. First thing she saw me, she said, "You got thinner. And so dark!!! My god! How long were you under the sun these days? Good lah, get tanner. You're a bit too white."

.___________.

It's okay, it had only been a week, although it felt like a month. I was so tired of socializing already. I missed everyone. Ivan called me and told me he was planning to meet me :D together with Zhi On :D I hope they can make it, I totally missed them ><

Anyway, we Buddhist had our first class today. Got a piece of kitab (._.) and a bracelet! :P lol

I couldn't open my eyes this morning and the alarm clock was showing 5.30am already. Sheva, the newly appointed dorm leader, didn't do her job too. She just combed her hair for 15 minutes plus, and went to sleep -.- So I ended up becoming the 'dorm leader' too, ordering ppl around to clean the dorm =.= jeez.

We had class in the morning. Finally get to know more people in my group called Malaysia Cute. Oh gosh, I can't believe why Achik thought of that. Nazirah fell for him already =.= which was pretty quick. I still couldn't remember the faces of my group members, let alone get to know them.. Kinda shy and awkward to be extrovert in a group of mostly Malays when my BM suck like shit. Jeez. And then, there is this dude I forgot his name but he looked Chinese that kept asking me questions. I don't even know whether I should answer him in BM, English or Mandarin. Shittiest decision to reply in BM cos it was horrible. I think he was laughing =.= FINE.

Anyway, we wore half loreng for the first time today. We had kawad practice for the first time, and Encik Abbas announced that they are choosing for 4 balak and 3 balaks. Azyan, Zurah and I was the last 3 and he chose Azyan and Zurah. Because he said there is already a chinese girl. I didn't know it was Isabel but I did later haha cos' Isabel was asking me to teach her how to kawad desperately. haha... I felt happy for her, I mean, finally, a Chinese chosen as a 3 Balak in a sea of malays :p

 Then at night, the waiting for Muslims to solat was extremely boring. I can't believe we were gonna do the waiting for 3 months. Shit. But on the bright side, its a bonding time with the Non-Muslims ;)
I knew more about Jia Pei, Hui Wan and Hui Xin. And they all have a boyfriend. And they all shared their stories. And then when they asked about me, I said I don't have a boyfriend and I don't have any experience being in a relationship. Its like the end of the world, they kept interrogating me non stop :( So in the end, I talked about Ivan... and cried. Wtf.

Then, later at night, we watched some videos which was related to the classes we had this morning... it was alien to me. And it isn't funny. It was boring ._. Hmm... getting our phones back tmr tho yay

*Got home ytd from camp. it was like a crying ceremony, seriously, anyway, I'm gonna try my best to type out my journal during my days in Kem Ulu Pari :)

I feel homesick already :( Johor people came and we, Team Bravo, had the most Indians ahhaha... Each of our dorms are 1 Malaysia already xD Had an hour of kawad today. Not really kawad lah, since its just standing on the padang kawad and lapor the attendance, get scold here and there and sang Negaraku :) Breakfast today was nasi lemak. It tasted horrible. Then we had a ceramah about "Buli". I swear, they had the worst slide show ever. Then, we had morning tea... After that, I smsed mom and Ivan haha It's been some time since I saw the word "*HUGS " in my inbox, so it really made my day ^^ Then, we had another ceramah which is about drugs. I didn't sleep cos' those drugs were really interesting to look at. haha. Time continued to the afternoon and we had our dorms rearranged so that the number is even :) Farah & Yan had to shift since they are only 4 of us that are from Shah Alam :/ Then, later that day, I got a comment from a jurulatih, saying "Chinese don't know how to do work". All because I didn't know how to report attendance. I cried later. Anyway, they rampas our phones today. I tried to memorize Ivan's number. But later that night, I tercalled someone else when I punched Ivan's "number" on the public phone. Hahaha. Ahhh.. hope he isn't reading this :P
I called mom.. Kinda missed her even though it has only been 4 days :( How to survive till 18th March? ><
Told my parents that... And dad said he trusted me to be strong.
Okay, I'm touched hahaha

I got to know more about the others from Shah Alam :) Though Eima doesn't really like talk :P Sabah and Sarawak came at midnight. Then, in the morning after our breakfast, those from Shah Alam had to shift our dorms to our respective company. Well, it was pretty tiring. Farah chose the last dorm for Bravo, its the best among the rest. All the lockers were fine, the bed wasn't so bad, walking out from the back door, its the place where we hang our clothes and further more down straight, it is the toilet ^^ Then, beside the dorm its a small pondok where the water dispenser is. Perfect :) Kajang people came in the afternoon, Isabel and I spoke to the Chinese and damn, they are really fun :D Boring boring boring.. then dinner! then boring boring boring. In the end of the day, we slept at 12 am that night.

After I registered at the counter at Stadium Shah Alam, every pelatih had to sit on the floor, with all our luggage beside us. There was like a signboard saying what camp blah blah, and we had to sit at our respective camp. (Well,duh.) No one talked to each other and it turned out that on the entire bus from Shah Alam to Kem Ulu Pari, there are only 2 Chinese. Both girls : Isabel and I ^^ Instant friendship haha Isabel had the same situation with me : She requested to change batch too :) After we reached the place, we had lunch, and it was raining heavily. So somewhat under the rain, we're formed into groups. Isabel got Alpha, and I got Bravo along with Eima, Azyan and Farah :D Then, we registered ourselves, showed our ICs, checked our BP, weight and height. I told the jurulatihs that I didn't manage to do a medical check up, they ignored me == Anyway, after tea time, we got our new stuffs : Uniforms and shoes, then we pulled our luggage and 2 bags of free stuffs up the hill, into our dorm. I think I died. Isabel had to make 2 trips >< Since there are still a lot of pelatih from other states that hadn't come, everyone slept at the Alpha dorms :) I slept beside Isabel, and she told me she was a gymnast and performed a lot of crazy act =.= Omg. But the beds. Gosh, it was so dirty. Ew.

Hmm... I'm not sure when I'll be back :P

*Time are only estimated* *But I checked my watch a lot so.. yeah*
Woke up at 6am to fetch aunt and uncle to the airport today. They're going HongKong today. So at 7.30am we reached the airport, then drove to the klinik.

Dad and I went to LCCT to fetch my aunt and her husband... And a car there went on fire due to the hot weather. Kinda cool, I mean, the car just started burning by itself all because of the heat. 

Christmas Eve~ Christmas Eve~ 

So I decided to help my uncle while waiting...to count the total savings for the day actually but lets not mention that. 

So my uncle is gonna bring us for dinner. But as I was waiting for Ah Hui to finish showering, I decided to check my FB. My timeline is spammed with birthday wishes and my messages too. But what stands out is from Mun Lin ^^ 

Prom night.谢谢你，愿意跪下来问我愿不愿意做你的舞伴。我没有后悔答应你。那天晚上我投入到你的怀里，我真的感觉到幸福的滋味。我还想再来一次，重复感觉到那个幸福、快乐、要你在我身旁的感觉。

喜欢上你，可是我最大的后悔…还是幸福呢？ 

Thursday : I had a terrible sleep the night before so I took a nap. ... And Jia Qi called me up and asked me abt NS. holy shit. N F***ING S?! Yeap. Well, I was damn hoping that since I was chosen for that shit, might as well just finish it off with the first batch. Guess what? I didn't f***ing get the first f***king batch. They couldn't even decide whether I get the second or the third one. You can basically say that all those days of planning about my studies, my holidays with family, part time jobs,etc. had just went to the drain. 

 After WEEKS of not exercising, I went to play badminton yesterday. And now all my muscles cells hurt :(

I swear, January was just 2 weeks ago.

So I decided to check my Twitter after Physics exam. And this is what I got : 

This is the first time i tweeted something and got 57 retweets.

I called him, but he didn't picked up. Next second he called back.

Just came home after Moral exam. It was the hardest paper I had ever did since Form 1. And there was one picture of a dead elephant without its head.

Actually, my third wisdom tooth has been growing since a few months ago.

I couldnt wake up in the morning. 

It seems like its gonna be another sleepless night for me today.

I never know that I have such a thoughtful junior T.T 

I don't know why but the pressure is just too much :( 

Yup. The day has come. SPM!!!