Tiffany

Uh huh. I wonder how did she even know me. And I dunno who is mino T.T 

So I decided to DM her instead of tweeting to her publicly.

After some asking and making things clear, I still have no idea who is mino. But one thing for sure, and that is:

I'm in.

.

.

.

.

I don't recall saying yes as an answer to the offer. 

The most I got was 30.

And today it is 57.

Like how on earth. 

This is an achievement hahahaha

I:"Hello?"

Me:"Hi!!! I thought you were gonna sleep, so I tried calling, but you didn't pick up. So I thought you slept."

Its so.. Traumatic :/

I mean, I just couldn't get it out from my head T.T 

Haih. Why.

:( :( :( 

I hope I managed to get an A for Moral tho, since my format was correct...

Can't believe it has always been us that are blasted with different formats and new stuffs. We are like guinea pigs. Being tested with all sorts of experiments :(

On the bright side, we would be better than the next generations. 

But still...

Sigh.

I got a really strong feeling that I won't be able to score at least 9A+ for SPM. I was hoping so much for it. All I want is the scholarship -- and make my parents proud. 

But I don't think its possible anymore :/

*takes deep breaths and exhale forgive me sighs*

~

Dad gave Yuva away already. And Dai Dai looked so solemn after realizing Yuva is never home anymore. 

I'm not sure if its just me, I noticed her eyes are more watery than usual. And the fur around her cheecks were soaked.

I hope she isn't crying after losing 2 dogs that were extremely close to her.

First, its Orka. Now, its Yuva.

Haih.

*takes deep breath again and exhale forgive me sighs*

~

2NE1 made an announcement and their new comeback song will be in 2 more days. Meanwhile, I'm having a serious matter with SPM, they decided to have their comebacks now. 

Why. Why. Why. Why.

And they will be doing another tour. This time Malaysia is included. (YAY) 

So I'm gonna work part time and get money for the tickets and the lightsticks! $$$$$$$$$ 

~ 

Mom saw Ivan and I sitting together and Julian was there too.

Mom asked me whether Julian likes me, not sure where she got the idea from but, okay.

And she thinks I look cute with Ivan. (Okay....)

Then she asked, "Why do you always like timid guys like Ivan and Julian? Get a brave one, those types that are brave to talk in front of adults like you." 

....

But, it stopped growing and I do have some problems chewing food after it stopped. I never thought that it would be a big deal.

Then, two days ago, it started to grow again. But much more painful :(

Looking at it, the gums around it had swelled up. At least its growing, just that it hurts so much, eating had really become a problem now :(

So i decided to google about it.

Hahahaha.

To prevent infection, I need to extract my wisdom tooth.

Like ASAP.

Hahahahaha.

Shit.

I got SPM now.

Hahaha.

Mom was concerned. And happy.

Because I won't complain to her that i'm hungry anymore.

T.T

I hope I don't need an extraction.

I can just withstand the pain, right? :D

Hehe.

:B 

But still, haiz. 

Check my LINE and one of the staff decided to create a Twitter account.

I'm in charge.

Wtf is the only word I could think of as I was brushing my teeth.

Spent the entire morning creating a new email, a new Twitter account and did publicity and managed to get 60+ followers today. 

Great start, right?

Oh yeah, and I havent started with Form 5 sejarah yet.

Spend the entire afternoon full speed till night. 

Realized today is Sandara Park's 30th birthday. 

She doesn't look 30 at all.

If I look like this when I'm 30, I'll be a super model.

She looks like she just turned 20.

Anyway, 11pm. Start trending #HappyDaraDay.

Start posting #DaraFacts with another staff. (Tho he did most of the job because I was studying and decided to tweet a bit here and there)

Trend trend trend trend

11.30pm. Finally done reading through the past year questions and answers.

Panicked for the an entire 15 minutes realizing the fact that I do not understand the last chapter.

Nearly cried.

Held back those tears and went to do one set of Biology paper 1.

Got 6 wrongs out of 50 questions.

Need to get better if want A+.

Checke phone and realized I havent update Tumblr.

Holyshit-ed for 5 minutes as I update it.

Sigh of reliefs as I'm typing this.

Mentally and physically tired.

Need to wake up early tmr to buck up my Sejarah. 

It will be my final boost before the real exam.

I can do this!

So goodnight!

Straight to the point,

I'm just no good with good byes.

Sometimes its just hard for me to say goodbyes to people whom I care - unless they are in a rush.

....

Anyway, there seem to be some changes in our usual conversations.

Of course, I don't expect things to last forever but not this fast.

I mean, the flow of the conversation does change quick between us.

I...

Well, yeah.

Just a small matter.

No big deal.

Its just less "hugs", less usual stuffs we used to do back to the early stage.

Yeah.

No big deal.

:) 

You changed before I changed.

So don't be mad at me if you ever tell me I'd changed because you'd changed earlier.

:) 

Such a small matter, isn't it?

What's the big deal when you have SPM to face?

Just temporary stress, fun, tiredness, pride...

Ah well. 

Back to Physics :) 

T.T

This is awfully touching. I got the motivation to face SPM better now ^^ hehe

But then he said "staight As ya?" 

What.

No.

What if I can't?

D: D: 

That would be such a disappointment.

Is he pressuring me?

D: 

Sobs sobs

*mixed feelings*

Listening to tips does make me realize I have A LOT to study. Though I'm not depending on it, but it definitely act like a checklist. 

I wasn't expecting bio.

That's the worst.

Idk what to say right now, my eyes are too blurry with tears to actually type a post abt my feelings now.

Just...

Plus, those terrible feelings...

Ugh.

Someone please just kill me.

Not literally, but a hug. 

Yeah, just kill me with hugs and cute cats or puppies and chocolates and pillows and sushi and ice cream and ohmaigod i will get so fat why is this happening 

Nooo.. I can't believe that its really here!

I still remember the first day of Form 5, and I thought,"SPM is still far" :)

And now, its just 2 more days.

Wow. Time does flies :/

I had a chat with Kayli just now and apparently, Cassie hasn't been studying and she is planning to go to a culinery school after spm. I'm not sure whether its possible but I'm sure you can't go anywhere if you have a really terrible SPM result :/ i just hope she doesn't fail..

I had been doing so much exercises lately. But I have absolutely no confidence for Bio and Physics! :( 

I'm so scared! Bio is a really hard subject. But everytime I read the question, I always have a big problem of writing the answers and leaving out the details :(

The motivation I only have now is to make my parents proud.

At least 9A+!!

It isn't much of a choice... 10A+ is damn much harder :/

I'm pretty depressed everytime I think of this T.T 

Tearful nights had come and passed. I just really hope that I can squeeze an A+ for Bio.

Sigh.

Good luck to myself, I guess.